Day 6: March 23, 2012

Have you ever felt so many emotions at once that you didn't even know what you were feeling anymore? You didn't know if you should laugh or cry or maybe even scream? Well, that's how I've felt this week and I think I can safely say that Robert feels the same. Heck, maybe Jake too! I can honestly say I don't think my emotions have ever been on a roller coaster like this. Don't get me wrong, my primary emotion is Gratitude. Gratitude to God that our Kailyn is doing so amazingly well! But along with that gratitude there's anxiousness, fear, powerlessness, sadness, and of course that overwhelming love that takes over your soul when you have a child. Mix all those together and I feel almost certifiable! I find we do better when we stay busy but that doesn't keep me from counting the minutes until we get to see her again. To see those big eyes work to focus on the world around her. To see that sweet little smile and even hear that beautiful cry. I was thinking today that I don't know what will be the more joyous occasion, when she was born or when she comes home! Until then we will keep ourselves busy, keep on with our daily routines of school, work, and activities. But the highlight of my days will always be seeing my babies healthy and smiling! Now, enough about me..let's get to the real reason you all visit this blog, Miss Kailyn! She was wide awake today at our lunchtime visit! She stayed awake for about 45 minutes just taking in the world around her. We love watching her respond to our voices, she especially responds to Robert's! We could both look at her for hours! Her weight was up 3oz today, making her a whopping 2lbs 13.4oz. Her only issue right now is she's having a little problem with spitting up. They are working to find her perfect balance. We left her tonight all snuggled in her bed and on her way to dreamland.